Hey all. For my ardent readers (bullshit...what readers? no one reads my shit..) out there sorry to keep ya'll waiting. I know its bene 6 months since my last entry and stuff but....kinda lazy to update yar? hahaha anyway~ 6 months...wow what's been going on? Hm..I can say nothing.. flat tahts about it. Nothing. Nora's walked out of my life and gone back to being a friend so...i'm kinda a free bird...or so i choose to think. Free from the shackles of being attached. Free from responsibilities and devotion. Free from all those chains. But now..I'm chained..chained to my freedom. Ironic isn't it?

Well...then again I'm weird.. Hm.. haven't been myself for the past month of so. Been feeling like a lost ghost with no destination nor duty in mind. Schools probably the only thing keeping me sane but just 5 more weeks of school and I'll be leaving poly. Sigh..for the past 1 month a couple of thigns really got to me. Why is it so hard for me to communicate with men? is it the lack of male hormones in my body? or is it due to my lack of faith and trust in my own species? or wasn't cos of weitang... I don't know. I have no close male friends or i should say...i have hardly any close male friends. This leads me to another one of my recent mind rambles. Who would i pick to be my bestman on my wedding day? Dawn? Vanessa? Jingxi? hahaha imagine them in a tux standing beside me. It's gonna be pretty weird...pretty danm'ed weird.

Sigh..yes yes I know I'm not making much sense...but then agian...I dun make any sense do I? I've come to realize how boring an individual I am. I have no hobbies, nothing interesting to share and no nice funny jokes to speak about. Makes sense why i have lousy pick up lines and I can only listen...wait...I'm a bad listener too. Great...I've just condamn'ed myself to be a loser on my own blog. Way to go alvin. Sigh...I'm facing a super early mid life crisis ain't i? =\ *groan* oh well...enough with the self bashing...I think i shall stop here. I'll update again soemtime this week and this time i PROM ISE i would.