Damn...for the first time in so many yrs I actually conked out under stress...feeling more like crap now then anything else. At least it ain't so bad now...just got out of the shower...a warm bath somehow makes me feel better. As I came home many thoughts veered through my mind as the lines along the street ran past me..studies..my attachement..and the feeling that I won't be able to commit anymore. I mean...its unfair to any girl and anyone. I stopped my jerk ass days well over a yr already and I shouldn't return to that road not for any of my dumb reasons. Some tell me to seak for true emotions but its hard cos I feel its unfair to any girl to love someone who isn't able to love them back. Thats me..typical cynic now. The fuck with emotions lets just get this exam over and done with I still have so much shit in my life to do. I just hope I can get my calm poise and composure back by tomorrow.