I once loved my poetry very very much. i've been thinking of writing again...ever since i lost my entire collection last time i stopped writing, but its time to begin again rite? hahahha...hm...my work place is actually quite fun besides the bad pay and work hours. I go to really interesting places and see alot of fun stuff hahahahaha

Yet again I'm reminded of my own mortality says:
i'm starting to think nora might just be perfect

Yet again I'm reminded of my own mortality says:
she's got a good character she's bubbly she laughs everytime i'm silly and corrects me when i'm wrong

Yet again I'm reminded of my own mortality says:
fears for me when i make stupid mistakes and loves me even if its bad

Yet again I'm reminded of my own mortality says:
she's probably the prettiest girlfriend i've had and the only one who'll stick by me through thick and thin

The very words on msn which i told my god sis. Strange...Sigh...i think i love her. Think..stupid word..I do love her. M..yet there are times when i guess someties we make the stupidest mistakes in life. My brother has told me that we should breka up, he says its not good to have a relationship which our parents won't give our blessings. True...but then again. Why shouldn't my paretns give their blessings? I'm happy ain't I? even if i do find someone can she give me the same feeligns and can i feelt eh same for her? sigh...it gets harder for me cos my mom made noise about me not going into a relationship and concentrating on my studies. There are times i feel my mom and dad still treat me like a sec 4 boi boi. It irritates me can't i do what i want and plan for myself? They always complain that I'm not independant and shit. Always complaning that I'm too homely. Yet when i go out they tell me not to come back alte when i obviously won't and Why can't i find someone to love now? Too young? then when's the age? Wehn i graduate from uni and turn 25? Ending up like my loser brother who stays at home most of his free time these days? He's not going to find anyone soon I know i'm evil but theres truth in it. I don't intend to marry but still the thought of having someoen who walks through thick and thin with me is there. I'm not close to my parents as my brother is so i need love from someone who I love just as much. Love is a strong word true but what other owrds are too be used in this context?I think i'll stay with her for a long time to come cos I still feel as happy and blissful as I was when i first dated her. Happy just being with her and in her presence, yet sad when she's nto around cos of these matters affecting me. Its amazing how i didn't cry at my grandfathers wake yet here i am talking about emotions. god knows who'll read this mingyun and sheena i know you guys still read my blog so thanks alot. To those who still do drop me a post tell me how you guys feel bout what i said.

Sorry for the lack of updates. Exams just ended and i've been in school everyday. Alas my grandfather pased away 6 hours ago. Won't be free for a lon time so decided to update now while i have a short time. Sigh..whats intersting is..he passed away at the same time as my grandmother did..so much to say but don't wanna talk about it. Good day all