Morning people! Just finished my shower and its 1:17 am now haha. Really had alot of fun today, Zai, nicholas and rudra got me a present. I was so touched you should have seen my face. Its been years since sch mates actually got me a present. I haven't celebrateed my birthdya besides with family and close friends cos I hate revealing my birthdate. There are still some close friends who don't know cos I refuse to reveal hahaha. Those guys actually found out which made me super surprised.
They bought me after shower cologne. Kinda has a fantastic scent to it and I used it when i went out with them just now. We went to NYDC for dinner. It was so cute, so much laughter and chatter I really really love those guys. I haven't had so much fun even with Weitang and the otehrs in secondary school, perhaps this is the difference of those guai guys and the wild ones. When we finished up with dinner they bought me and wee hian a birthday cake!!! (wee hian's birthday is one day be4 me) It was quite a surprise cos I was the one who wanted to bring wee hian out for dinner to treat him but int he end i was treated to myself hahahaha. They sang us a birthday song at NYDC really really loud and everyone was looking at us oh my god so paiseh. The company was fantastic. Each time I go out with the guys its really thrill fun. After that we went for a karaoke session. We went to cuppage...sigh the place me and shuhui went last time. Memories flooded back but now I think I can go back there cos I have new and happy memories of the time i had witht eh guys. We lamed around and stuff really really dumb. We sang sogns till we got horse throats. I bought them a round of beer for the great time they gave me. Truly this is a moment that will stay locked in my heart like a picture which will remain unfadable. Thanks guys cheers to you all again

Hey all. I wanna blog now but i dun know where to start. Been through mood swings the past weeks and now I see myself as going through a dark corridor without see'ing an end in sight. Its lonely yes but I am starting to like it. In a weird way its beautiful. I am really gonna get down with studying real soon. As soon as the clan trails are over and admin matters completed, trasition of decision making abilities to key members and letting mervyn take on my exco. Sigh so much to do so much to do. I;ve been telling myself that so often that now I really believe i have alot to do. Falling behind school work and soon I might have to put my friends aside too. This corridor might be lonely but the darkness has always been my intimate friend and one day I might see the light at the end of the corridor, until then the dark loneliness shall be my one and only companion. Dun worry i ain't diabolical or anything dudes and chicks you guys should know me better that i won't go mad. Well...thinking of the song let me go let you go. It reflects my daily mood beautifully

Hey all...yea realised I haven't been writing very much at all. Something is wrong but I don't really know what. I realised i haven't been talking to many people, when i met dawn yesterday i realised my silence, even with biqin and van i was also rather quiet not really myself. Maybe its a new change in me or maybe just a mood swing I don't know. I really really prefer being silent these days the only people i can construct more then 10 sentences with are my jie(kim), XQ and felice. Sigh...sometimes i just sit there in a daze listening to music and rotting. Its bad makes me sound psychotic but no I'm not I'm perfectly fine. Lately been thinking of edith again, stupid yes but it happens. I still live in the past and all the conversations we had. Parts of me still long for the past but I know it can never happen. Loving someone came so easy for me before, those who know me well should know that fact but these days...I've just lost all drive. Maybe its maturity as age catches up with me maybe not. hahaha there i go blabbering rubbish. Well...guess I shall end here. Don't worry my friends I'm fine just going through a period of change i guess

just laming around feeling bored. went to watch My boss's daughter today and trust me its a crap show u don't wanna waste money on. I don't wanna say much but for those who wanna know whats with me I wrote something just now conveying what i feel.

Present thoughts

I sat on the beach, looking at the stars
As sand ran through my fingers like my thoughts,
Thinking of my past, my present,
Thinking of friends now here and those I’ve lost,
The clan, my life, how screwed it all seems
It’s a wonder its wonder what I failure I’ve become

Hey guys and chicks. Sorry fort he lack of updates. Just haven't been int he mood for anything. Kinda locked myself up again. Those who wanna ask me out sorry I really ain't in the mood to do nuts, as for those whom I've agreed to go out with I shall keep my promise. Lately I don't talk to anyone,be it online or ont he phone, Xq got abit worried bout my behaviour and I guess I've been pretty strangel. Hm...Don't know whats up, I've just been playing CS...listening to my mp3's and reading some books. Well...sigh. Somethings on my mind I guess but i don't wanna share...sigh~ what the hell is wrong with me.

Just so bored. So tired of things around me. Just feel so bloody shitty. Not really int he mood to blog but i can say the last week papers sucked and i was ill. Sigh don't know whats gotten into me. Just don't feel like talking to anyone

Morning dude's and chick's. Been a while since i blogged hm...not much of change except feeling really stress and super dejected. Reasons being the exams which i am still un-prepared for, the clan and something else which i shan't say. Woke up this morning feeling lethargic so i lazed in bed and rolled around abit. Kinda realised I wanna go back to the carefree and free spirited person I was when poly began. I admit I've been interested in someone for well over a month but I feel somewhat drained. Having feelings for someone is not an easy thing nor is it always smooth sailing. I understand all that but I guess I can't take that price. Well back to being a monk and drawing myself back into hiding. Will update again when my papers are over hopefully not so stressed by then