Hahahaha harlow people....updating while having 5 more mins to my lesson. Anyway...went out shopping with sheena yesterday someone please remind me never to go shopping with a girl again. Sigh...I hate shopping cos its so tedious and finding something for sheena is really hard. Now u guys know why i seldom go out to shop cos i really hate walking from shop to shop to find something to wear. I bought her a pair of ear-rings(bloody hell first time hear me buying soemthing for a girl) which she was eye'ing last friday. Let me remind u all here that she means nothing more then a friend. She was rather happy but I hope she knows that it does not mean i am going to shower her with gifts. It was so sweet of XQ to sms me last night when she didn't see me online and asking me if i was alright. I was really touched. Thanks girl...PS to XQ: sorry for biting at u last night I guess I was just realy tired...Going to town again to find something for sheena and this time we better get it fast cos I REALLY REALLY hate shopping........


hm...Haven't seen mingyun online I wonder how is she...Sigh women are nothing but trouble no wonder i prefer to hollow myself infront of my com then to go out with them. Hm...going for the concert with sheena and vanessa on friday (why do u think I would go shopping with sheena if not for the concert. Most prob might ask vanessa to go for a drink with me after the concert and catch up with her. Hm....this should be it will up date if i have the time cya llama's.

hm..I shall begin today not in my cheery or playful tone. Instead I shall be serious. Anyone who knows me well knows that I am a bloody flirt. Thos closer to me knows that I am not who I seem...for deep inside there is a special someone called Edith. As you cna read from almost all of my previous post's...her name is always mentioned. I went to catch 2 Fast 2 Furious today and like any other day an sms came through...what i didn't expect was the msg to have come from Edith. I did what I had to do and exchanged formalities and ask how she was. In just 3 msg's I ended off. Ever since I decided to bury things I felt for her I've adopted this approach. In any case...I don't know what possessed me to call her. We spoke of course...15 mins later we ended the call. Through out the conversation I kept myself at check for fear of burried feeligns rising once more. She told me it was her 2nd anniversary with her bf and that he had gotten her a diamond pendant. She began telling me why he got it. When she ended she asked me something which I still can hear through my head..."Why are you so quiet". I didn't notice it but I was deep in thought...in a way...I was happy for her...truly happy yet truly sad it couldn't have been me. Her bf is a very lucky man. I stalled and didn't answer her...though she wanted an explanation thankfully another call came through for her mother and she had to go. Its been 20 mins since I put the call down with her. Something occured to me..."if you let the one whom you love be with someone she loves and yet u can smile and be happy for the bliss she has then you have found true love". I guess I've began to move on. With the lack of emotion inside of me and with the past being burried as it is I guess I've closed another chapter in my life.

In any case...I've found courage to move on with my life...my friends whom I love dearly and my clan which I've been building in memory of my past friendship with Weitang. A new chapter begins...hopefully...the character Edith would remain in the previous chapter and not move into the new one...

Heylo guys doing a post on a weekday is something rare but since I've got nothing to do might as well update. Today...hm...what can I say...kinda a twist of fate for me. Let me start off...in my 2nd yr as a poly student, only 3 girls in my poly have ever caught my attention and held onto it. 2 of them resemble edith in certain ways and another is just plain pretty. One of the 2 that resembles edith let me re-enact the encounter......I was going down the coridoor and she was coming in my opposite direction, she sport a short hair cut and the look on her face was almost the same as the one which edith had the night we went for dinner...I could never imagine that I would actually get to know her name and shake her hand as I did today..whoops I am jumping too far ahead. Anyway...my class rep Ronny knows cherie who just so happens to be a friend of that girl. All along I knew that girl was a year older and she was attached. Dear Ronny said that cherie and that girl were at the Plaza and the grl didn't mind knowing me, as usual I panicked and I can list the same reasons I gave Ronny, 1) I looked like shit cos I have a bad pimple outbreak, 2) I was in berms and some mis-matched top, 3) I was wearing sandals and walking like a slob in it, 4) i didn't bother combing my hair and it looked more like the amazon rainforest, 5) I was not prepared to meet her. Yet ronny, shuai feng and Zaw told me to just do it cos I may never get such an oppetunity again. I comtemplated and decided to go down with much hesitation. When I saw her I panicked again and I went to a different table with shuai feng and Zaw while ronny went to talk to cherie. Boy you should have seen my face, i could feel the heat going to my entire face. I just decked my entire face onto the table and refused to lift it. Ronny came back and said the 2 ladies were waiting and I panicked again. It wasn't until then that i learnt her name was Joanna...interesting name....anyway...Ronny and the 2 guys finally convinced me to approach her. I did and I walked up to her...the only time i actually looked at her was to say my name and shake her hand...man...her hand was like porcelain and it was really really...a femanine hand-shake something which took my breathe away. I didn't look at her after that and neither did I say much besides making a fool of myself...as u should notice by now I have low-selfesteem. Sigh...when they left I wass feeling down cos I felt so stupid!!!!!. Dumbo....sigh....but at least she knows my presence and that would be all enough for me. Her resemblence to edith is...strong? You could probably wonder why I still see the images of edith in the people I see and relate them back to her. Anyone can wonder but no one will know the answer for I don't know myself. Hm..so this is my day i guess...Ronn'y having lunch wiht cherie and possibly her so hopefully i can tag along but let me make myself clear on this matter...I do not have anything for her no feelings nothing what-so-ever. Wanna know why? read on

Lately...I've seem to have lost the drive to flirt and stuff...its been 2 weeks since I've shown interest in anything relating to emotions. I may talk about it once in a while but truly...the drive is gone. I don't know why but maybe its because of the fact that I'm only interested in developing friendships then ruining them by having a relationship with anyone. Sigh..well guess this is all i can for today...thanks for being patient and reading tilll the end.

Harlow all...I am feeling super bored tahts why I am updating. Currently ice'ing the swell on my leg as per orders of the grand dragon lady Mingyun. Sheesh....ice';ing it sucks man pain but if i don't do it she gets angry. Oh well.....in any case got tutorials to do later and Mr Hoe KC's lesson tomorrow. Sheesh i really hate that guy. Bloody irritating at times man. Oh yes got myself a chatterbox so please use it people thanks. Guess thats all so i shall leave u all here

Heylo gang...Sorry for not updating for over a week. Hm....heres a quick update. The week has been the same but I've been playing basketball again! WooHOO! I miss the game coss I couldn't find time to play lasts semester due to long hours in school. Went jogging today and sparred with lilian and boy did she give me a big blue black on my shin and it stings man. Anyway... saw cheryl wong today at bishan mac's she looks better then she was and much attractive. She said i seem to have put on weight....=\.....and kahwai said the same thing too gosh...depressing but I've decided to try my best to lose weight and the big big tyre around my tummy area. Hm....besides the usual crappy'ness of my class and the other lame stuff my do I don't think theres anything to update about my week....oh yes one more thing....Went down to changi hospital yesterday to keep mingyun company after her physio ended. She sid her knee gets abit wobbly after theraphy so I decided to keep an eye on her, don't want anything to happen to her. As I walked out of 7-11 after purchasing a snickers bar she sms me to say her dad had dropped by unexpectedly to pick her up. Sigh~ suay or suay man.....anyway....I went home from simei hahaha. Oh yea mingyun if u r reading this don't feel bad k? but next time we try again hahaha

Harlox all, life has been good and bad at the same time for me. I really enjoy the company of my sch mates cos they are crappy and all but studying sucks. Kinda worried i might not make it but I will do my best and I will put mind to it as hard as I can.

Went out to collect my brothers stuff from his friend who came back from aussie. When i reached orchard he told me he couldn't make it and he'll go to campus to look me up. Damn him man but sicne he is doing us a favour who am I to complain rite? Anyway...I met XQ today at first you wouldn't think she's attractive or anything but as she did the henna painting on me I looked at her and at that point i felt she was attractive in a way i can't explain and believe you me, she's really bubbly and I feel anyone who is in her company is really lucky. She did a pretty good job on my hand and I wonder why she's complaining she is bad at it. I hope she lightens up and just go do her best.

Talking to mingyun...sigh that girl was feeling lonely and upset that she has to travel alone and everything for her physio session. I decided to try my best to go wait for her after each physio session she has and send her home cos of her wobbly knee. I know what it feels to be alone and having to face the pain cos of my stupid dentals yrs ago. I hated waiting alone for the dentist and sitting there like a ah gong then going home alone on the train with my teeth hurting like hell. As i walked out of the toilet just now. I remember edith...I remember the first time we went out i went tothe dentist with her cos she had her appointment. Man i miss her alot alot... It hurts to think of her..."Should I stay" is really the best song for my feelings now though I've forgotten her the memories she gave me was the best I ever had in my life more then ever with any girl...

Should I Stay
By Dreamz FM

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Even though I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you

I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times

Guess it’s sad just the same
I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…

Heyx all....schools began and life has been really hectic once more. Yet I prefer it this way. Hate rotting and thinking too much when i have too much free time, but being a deep thinker has always been my way. I've began distancing myself from the clan and I've taken leave and left Samantha and my god sis kimberly in charge. I'm running away from something and I don't want to face it. Sound like a coward? No its not that I am. Its just that I've thought of all available scenario's and this is the best. Running away is the only thing i know how to handle emotional issues.

In anyway...Wanted to catch twins effect just now with ruby but dumb cinema's were showing it at a really late timeslot. Might be catching it on frieday after I get my hair-cut cos I hate my fringe drooping over my eyes. Tuesdays really suck. Damn CA lesson last's for about 4-5 hrs with lecture(2hrs), tutorials(1 1/2 hrs) and lab (2 hrs). God its the first time I've been so shagged studying in poly. I want home alst night really tired and fraustrated.
Hm...guess this is all I have to say. Might update soon again who knows