hm...blogging now with thoughts on my mind but kinda lazy to type it all out. I've got a song in my head now fromThe Wonders. I fell in love with this song many years ago and till nw it still holds a special place in my heart.


Every night I pray
I'll have you here someday
I'll count the stars tonight
And hope with all my might
And when I close my eyes
You'll be right by my side
If I could only have one wish
You'd be the girl whose lips I'd kiss
All my only dreams

And when I close my eyes
You'll be right by my side
If I could have just one request
Stay with me girl I confess
All my only dreams
Every waking hour it seems
I only have you in my dreams

So every night I'll pray
I'll have you here one day
I'll count the stars tonight
And hope with all my might
And when I close my eyes
You'll be right by my side
If I could have just one request
Stay with me girl I confess
All my only dreams


Beautiful song isn't it? haha =) enjoy it mates

boo. I'm blogging haha surprised? everyone probably thought I wouldn't and might disappear another year but no I haven't. Karen says i should get a tagboard but i don't know where to find a stable one hm~ might go twinker with afew and see how it goes.

Just yesterday a lady I know says I'm rather childish and i believe like a 1988 child. gezz...talk about being complimented. lol. Childish...friends who know me what do you think? Am I truly? others sometimes tell me I'm a deep thinker and I don't show it. Maybe..There are times when my brain is processing more then it should. I can hop from one thought to another and maybe none at all! amzing isn't it how my mind works. =P

Grace is taking her exams now and I dun think we'll have as much time together till her papers are over. I blocked nora off my msn list cos I don't really want her to view my blog. After all...there are alot of unpleasant things said about her and comparisons between her and grace in my blog. This suddenly reminds me of what Shuhui said many years ago:"You're always thinking about others,you should be selfish at times". True, but thats just my nature. Always considerate about how others feel and often it gets me in trouble or makes me feel like shit. haha..oh well those who read my blog you can post your comments about what i've said so far. Tell me what you think =)

Blogging agani. Often when one blogs doesn't one wonder who reads? I wonder who does O.O haha. Well...I was skimming through dawn's blog. I always love reading what my bestie is doing over in aussie and before that how that bloody fruit treats her when I'm too busy to check on her before she left. Its amazing when I look back on all the years we've known each other. From mear only friends to the current state we are, my my we've come a long way. Through her I met another wonderful soul and that's vanessa. Vanessa the evil,the impatient but wonderful. Dawn the good,the patient and beautiful. I wonder how they'd react when they read this...

I'm lucky to have met so many other wonderful friensd along the course of my life,some I'ev left go cos of some reasons or another. Some I've let down. But with dawn's post I realize how wonderful frienship is and that I should continue to make myself a better friend. Maybe I should concentrate my efforts on friends worthwhile then those who cast me aside only to be used when needed..

7th June 2005...my god..its almost a yr it seems. Such a long time has passed since the time before army began. Its now 4th June 2006. 3 days short of 365. 362 days have gone by but what has changed. Looking back...i think nothing much has for me. I'm still the immature and unwise brat I've always been. More reclusive maybe...but at least wiser when grace is around. Yes...grace..the only light that guides me these days through my dark times. If not for her what would I ahve become now. A shadow of my once glorious self.

As i type this now, i begin to wonder. What good have I done for the past yr. I think I'm starting to take a step closer to my family. Or at least I'm trying. I realize I've become distant frmo them cos I dun talk much to anyone. There's also my friends...yes...my beloved friends,dawn,jingxi and lydia al of which whom ahve gone to aussie...jerome and janice whom i've met up with recently..weehian,nicholas,david and the rest of my poly bunch who i still cherish even though we're leading different lives. I also think back on the days before i enlisted,the bishan group who kept me laughing and entertained through the months leading to my enlistment days. Yes i ponder about all these friends..I don't know if they would read this but still i wanna say thank you. Thank you to dawn for being my ever constant guide through these years of my short life. Thank you jingxi and lydia for being there in my turbulent chapter in life. Thank you jerom and janice for the wonderful memories of a time in my life as a student made enjoyable by you guys. Thank you my poly friends who showed me colors of life and the ways of truency. Lastly..thank you my bishan mates who kept me awake and laughing through lonesome nights.

Why am I saying all this...honestly i don't know. Maybe its the lost of a dear friend which has finally made me realize what a horrid person and friend I truly am. 21 yrs and none the wiser...*throws head back and laughs* goodness..sigh. Yes I shall update more often now...i know i've made that promise but now truly i shall keep it. Alittle poem here and there, a little thoughts of who i am. who reads this i wonder...truly i won't know. maybe I'll set up another tag board just to se who cares. *shrugs*