Good morning all...man what a night...I've been thinking too much for my own good again. Thinking of things maybe i shouldn't have and then bothering my friends with my shit. I did what i never thought i would do again...I actually gave shuhui a call last night. I had my reasons and it was because of edith. *shakes head* the only girl who can still bring tears to well up in my eyes, but what connection does edith have to shuhui? It was because of shuhui that i met edith on that fateful saturday evening over 2 years ago. Another issue that did bother me was weitang..but I've classified it as hopeless. Insofar as I know me and him are like leaves lost in the wind never to find the same tree. I've lost my maturity haven't I. Where was the guy who wouldn't get bothered by this matters anymore. I guess I hid it inside me too long and now its all bursting out. I shall go missing again. Haven't done this for a long time for those who've known me long. Its time i went missing and got over all this shit by myself. Tc ya'll~

Unmistakable

And so I found you again
Each time I hear anything about you my tears just keep falling
When I needed someone there badly you’d magically appear
A beautiful angel whose radiance would never fail to uplift me
My times of pain, hardship, betrayal and weakness
You always were the one whom I’d seek to turn to
Though there’s a driving rift I sincerely believe that time might guide me
The very same way it did when we first met…

Hey people..I know I haven't been online. Reason...com is nutty and I'm lazy to use it at most times anyway. Haha..getting to be lazy to use the com..interesting isn't it? Well...been studying having a change of heart. Time to mug and mug cos I wanna go philippines. Hm...not much of updatess in my life. Found a new hope and its hope of a beautiful tomorrow that guides me on. Hahaha...I can't explain why I siad that its just what I feel. Well...I guess I'm happier? Maybe,maybe not...oh well I'm unpredictable. Oh well cheer'ios and till after my exams.

Sapped

Initially I was dazzled I truly was
But now it just seems I’ve become quite lost
Not knowing what I really want
To know you or just keep things the way they are
A secret admirer who’s losing the feeling
Or a desperate little boy who longs for you

hello all. Haven't been myself today. Something is on my mind and its keeping me occupied. Went for my basic theory test today. Bloody hell its hard. The questions are pretty tricky not really as easy as people say it is. Well I don't know. Feel so not in the mood for anything. Fucking hell. This feeling sucks I tell you. Was jusst staring into blank space the whole day and feeling crappified. This is getting freaking lame man. Better end here before I continue swearing and cursing.

Blogging again today. Second one of the day. Just wanted to speak my mind feeling abit dumb. Don't know whats gotten over me. Sigh~ lifes failures, mishaps and sometimes ...sometimes...shit. Let me be honest. I miss her whose her? felice. That's who. Feel like smacking myself man. Been avoiding her like nuts but that truth remains. Feel like shit..

Afternoon all...Didn't go to school today. Taken ill with a flu and cough. Haha don't intend to see a doctor but my friends would murder me if they know I didn't. Quick update...hm.....actually nothing to update. Haven't been anywhere or stuff so kinda nothing to update. Well nothing to say so I shal just leave you guys with another one of my works. Cya~

EnchantƒÕ

So long it¡¦s been, I¡¦m still dying to know you
Months it¡¦s been since you¡¦ve caught my eye,
Faithfully I pray for fate to acquaint us,
I saw perfection in your beauty,
Your radiance holds my heart captive,
Your eyes keeping me spellbound.
Alas¡Ka fear for beauty shattering apart holds me back,
Thus grows a cloud of doubt in me,
Would it be possible to out-stretch to this love¡K

hello people. Hm...not much has happened at all. Well...life's the same normal and shit. Did packing with the philippines team today and I dun really like some of the guys. One's too lame and another is too sissy. God man survive 22 days with them can die lor. I had to pretend I'm open and sociable and shit but the truth if far from it. I hate socialising unless I feel like it. Damn it starting to regret man. Hm...besides that I dun think theres anything else. Oh yea going to register for the basic theory driving test tomorrow. Troublesome man. Sigh~ got soemthing else on my mind but dun wanna say it here so I shall end off. Cya all..till next time


Enchantment

And still I am dying to know you,
Been months since you’ve caught my eye,
I wait for fate to guide my lost soul,
To give me a chance to at least have known you,
Thought I’ve found perfection in your image,
There’s a fear that such perfection breaking apart which holds me back
Day by day a doubt grows over shadowing me
Doubt in which I might fail if I out-stretch my arms to a dream
A dream which you’ve given me…

Morning people...6 mins before I leave for school lets see if I can finish this up. Hm...life's been tiring and abit stressful with project deadlines to meet. Sometimes I dun get enough sleep even. Well not much changes in my life though. Anyone new for this old romeo...the answer is no. No interest haha. Whats new right? Went for dinner with dawn and vanessa last night. Interestingly...we were talking bout growing up,friendship and stuff...it occurred to me in probably 4 yrs down the road we won't be able to sit down talk and have time for each other...both of them are gonna get pregnant one day and have small dawn's and vanessa's running around their legs. I might turn back and just see my friends going...tied to marriage,maybe betrayl or some may even leave singapore. Hasn't that already happened before already? Karen is tied to elgene, WeiTang betrayed my trust, Lucianna left for Canada. Yes I've been through so much shit in my life. Sometimes I really wish I had a larger group of guy friends besides poly guys but the thing is guys are really different from women. With women you can bear your most sensitive thoughts to but guys would think you're sissy or a weakling. Queer how from the same generic mother and father how different both species think. I'm changing again...my thoughts are evolving once more and this time theres just no one I can share these thoughts with. Dawn is busy with school, vanessa with her projects, lydia with the A's, biqin with her relationship, karen with both relationship and A's, lucianna's gone, Weitang's trust broken and destroyed,angeline's trust went with weitang's... There's really no one close by who understands my thoughts here anymore...well its 8:03 now so i better be going. cya all

hey people. Sigh~ been thinking bout the trip and starting to wonder if its a good idea. I have so much here to worry about and leaving for 22 days isn't the best idea. I was talking to jie(kimberly) about my reluctance to leavet eh clan for so long and she says its only natural cos the clan is like my baby. I do have my worries but maybe I should let her and Mervyn take charge. There is also the worry of my friends. What if they need someone tehre and I'm not able to be tehre and unable to keep my promise to always be there for them. Sigh...worries worries worries and then tehres my exams god in heaven. Well..was listening to "kai bu liao kou" by jay chou. Was thinking of audrey and suddenly my hands clutched up really bad. Man..felt horrible. I guess...maybe she ain't to blame? Maybe it was my fault and I wasn't a good boyfriend. Makes sense doesn't it? Maybe thats why no one would ever open their heart to me..hahaha oh well...the heck. Move on lil fella....and yes I shall.

Hello people! My overseas attachement has been approved!!! Weee~~~~! It means I'm going overseas to do my 3 month job thingy which every poly student has to complete. I'll be back only probably 20th of november? hahahaha the heck witht he date. I'm gonna be pretty busy helping out in school with the packing of things which the schoool is shipping there and stsuff so I won't be able to come online so often to blog! Oh yes quick update...had alot of fun last saturday. Went out with XQ, BQ, mikko, Vanessa and ting ying. We went to eat then went to catch 28 days later it was a stupid show dun catch it. Then.....erm......this week has been hectic so many projects to rush hahahaha but yes!!!!!!!! I get to go overseas to do my attachment!!!!!!!1 woot~~!!!!