Morning all....Bloody rain....woke up at 6:30 late for training and as I was showering lilian called me and said trainings cancelled.........-_- and i like ARGH.........so i decided to come online train my skills abit then blog. Now I'm feeling so freaking sleepy....sigh felice if u r reading this sorry i didn't stay on last night cos i was so tired. XQ i hope you are feeling better now? Hm....nothing much to say, oh yes felicia thanks for pinning something on the tag board yes I'm fine thanks! haha work hard for ur A level's all the best. As for those O level's takers who read my blog study hard to alright

Hey people long time no update. Hm...my week has been pretty cool and everything ain't that bad. I failed my lab quiz for circuit analysis though but the other subjects should be pretty fine. Been talking to felice again and just treating her as a friend. Hm.....exams are in 1 weeks time and i gotta start mugging. Hm......don't know what else to update though. Oh yea went back to KCP today and spoke to my ex form teacher. KCP students are getting from bad to worse I tell you. Even my form teacher says discipline is getting bad. Totally atrocious. Sigh oh well Since Mr. Low left everything started to fall apart. Sigh~ thats all i have to say hahahaha kinda just rotting online so decided to update
cya guys again

Hey all just updating cos abit hm...disturbed? Well was sms'ing felice just now and a sentence of her's disturbed me "what makes you think I'm willing to meet you". Quite a cut into my heart, but she's right what makes me think I'm good enough? Well its made me realise that I've been trying hard to know her maybe abit too much and Its been nearly a month trying and everything but its still kinda the same where I started...back to where I started. I'll stop now since it seems so meaningless. Well...exams are coming so I can go back to burying myself under all that work and the can needs my attention after my exams. Hm..that's about all just wanted to rattle. enjoy ur day gang

Ladies and gentlemen who often read my blog I'd first like to say thank you but I have to take time off for a while. An event in my family prevents me from having much time online. Those who are my close friends I've never asked this of you before but I would like you to be there for me now more then ever. As for other friends please leave me to my silence thank you.

hey pep's sorry for not blogging for over 2 weeks haha....hm...don't know what to update or what to say. Well...I saw shuhui in campus yesterday. For those who don't know who she is, she was my ex girlfriend. After so long she finally said hi to me. I don't wish to say what happened. But I spoke to felice about it and she did counsel me rather well. Anoter event was qwendolyn, she is going through events I went through yrs ago. I fear if she does not have the guidance of a priest or a true christian she might turn onto the path of insanity. I was blessed with the help and guidance of a christian school and friends like dawn. I am unable to help her as many know I am a irregular...a person who believes in the existance of god and honours him although people do not realise it. Alas...my distance from god has been great of late. I have grown distant from him. Hm...I have not introduced felice have I? Well I think the only person who knows who she is would be XQ as for my other friends what can I say? Hm...she's younger(don't ask me her age if u wanna know e mail me), she's understanding in a way that exceeds her age, she's mature yet inside of her I sense her free spirited nature. If there would be a female version of my thinking and ways and behaviour it would more or less be her. As I shared the shuhui incidents and memories with her she could instantly guess my thoughts and in a way bring back memories and answer questions which my heart avoided. But one thing she said surprised me..."you still care alot and feel for her" strange isn't it? I mean...it wouldn't be true. If my heart would keep anyone it would only be Edith...but no...I rufuse to keep anyone in my heart now. Yet I shall confess something...I might have something for felice...my friends tell me what do I do? Since the end of audrey my feelings have not solidified for anyone mostly I've had flings and stupid actions which I lived to regret...people like amanda and xingying. I've put the past behind me and I've stopped flirting...Haven't oggled at anyone since I began the clan...and since school began. Wondering my sexuality? hahaha go and guess. Please to those close to me who are reading this tell me...what do I do with felice? Hide,run or stay? what do I do?

morning all...doing my blog my 15 to school how cool is that hahaha. First i wannaa complain. Dumb ants got into my breakfastan now i'm reduced to munching on tim tam's damn it. Thank god for their creation or i would be starving. Anyway...the weeks been alright so far but the real challenge comes tomorrow, class's end at 3 and I need to fly down to the pl fun fair which ends at 5 hm......then training at 7 which I am so lazy to attend but lilian will kill me if i don't go. And...............thats about it. Sunday's the class barbecue and singapore's birthday is on saturday. Hm....saw joleen last night and played CS with her, kimberly and terry when i was suppose to be studying hahaha asshole. But it was nice having a game wiith her after so long. Well I have 12 more mins to school but i wanna listen to huang hun so i shall leave u all here ciaoz!

hey people...its 7:35 in the morning i'm suppose to be preparing for school but here i am at my com ready to be late for class yet again. Couldn't sleep last night so I decided to give XQ a call, we spoke awhile and I realised how lonely I've become inside. With my lack of trust in guys (I'm a guy yet i don't trust guys weird but I have my reasons) and me hollowing up inside of myself its no wonder why I'm lonely. I don't know why but I'm thinking of emiko now. She is returning on the 8th but would she be the same as when she left? There wasn't a goodbye nor was there anything said between us even before she left. Would she still have her crush on me? I doubt..I really doubt cos she's a pretty wild child. Would we fulfill the promise of going out together when she returns? Even more doubts.

Life is really a lonely journey, We came into this world alone, we leave it alone...I'm tired once more...I think I'll take a break from all my chat programs. My nick will still be there and stuff so if anyone needs a listening ear I'm there but I won't go approaching you guys for now...its time out for me


Gareth Gates:
Evergreen
"I'm gonna take this moment and make it last forever
I'm gonna give my heart away and pray we'll together
cos your the one good reason
your the only girl i ever need
cos your more beautiful then I've ever seen
I'm gonna take this night and make it evergreen"

Sigh...been thinking of the clan again...kinda feel I should disband the group...I mean...with our usual server foxtrot down...school and work making everyone busy...its kinda hard to let everyone get together and the clan members don't even mix around themselves. Losing touch with them one by one, these days the only clan members i see are sianz, felix and ah born. Kinda tired being the only one holding things together..

harlow people. I have 15 mins more before i leave the house. Going for the NJC concert later but meeting Vanessa for dinner.....when was the lasst time i met her god knows time to catch up. Hm...Wish i had a pic to show u guys how i will look tonight kinda retarded bringing a blazer with me but no choice lar wear pants and shirt but no jacket except for the blazer and my nike one. So don't have much of a choice but to drag the blazer out to use. Hm....nothing much to update hahahaha my life is quite sian when I don't go and flirt right? But life is stable though boring when I don't flirt. Oh heck leave it be...shall go style my hair now and be early if not vanessa will have my arse(which is very cute by the way anyone wanna touch and see?) cya all around